Its shaking deep inside. I need a little venting at this precise moment. I thought its was all perfect. At least i thought things could change to look a little sunnier and dat a little tinkle will shine. But i was wrong. That text msg totally threw me off balance. The inevitable had happened and things will nv be the same again. Life now holds no meaning and i am floating in the air waiting for something to be pull me down to earth again. Its like suddenly the gravity has gone. I am waiting for the decision that could make or break. And i seriously dunno what to feel now. Whether i should be a bigger person or should i juz be selfish. Afterall all humans are selfish and i have to fight for what i wan, but will all the hardwork pay off? I seriously dunno. How to compare 2 mths to 3 years? Will dat 3 years juz fade away and not leave a scar? I really doubt so. Its alrd imprinted, imprinted hard, and it will not go away for a long long time. I gave everything and a little bit more and it still aint enough. Am i really so much more worst? who says no one will compare? the entire world will. Its a battle or insecurities. Things happens for a reason, does this count as a reason? to what den? I jus need to noe. I juz want to noe. Like now!